FACTS about me (In case I become famous)

Name: Cheza Mae Ran Amparo Rioveros
Birthday: May 25. 1992
Hails: San Juan Batangas

1. I Love to eat. I always in a crave mode. But I don’t eat pusit.crab and shirmp (sometimes). I do not have allergies but I just dont like how they smells.

2. I love Dogs and Cats. In fact, My cat mimi was at my lap while I’m writing this blog. Today, I have two dogs (Julia & Geabel). Three Cats (Mimi,MoMow,Memew). My first ever cat named Meng Meng Dale, she always sleeps near my feet and wakes me up early specially during weekdays for school. She’s very lovable. Kind. She never steals food. And she’s Friendly. But our kapitbahay killed her by pouring hot water on. I miss Meng Meng.

3. I think I have that detective talent. I loved to stalk pipol. Most specially my crush. Or anyone interesting. If I you were my type . Pardon me. Paparazzi.

4. Driving is my frustration.

5. Blueberry cheesecake and strawberry cheesecake is ❤️

6. I’m a shoes addict. Except for rubber shoes. I think rubber shoes doesnt fits me and my styles. But heels. Wedges, doll shoes, boots are heaven.

7. I usually do soundtripping before going to sleep and when I woke up. While travelling. When just bored or nothing to do.

8. I have craziest. Widest. Wildest imagination. Sometimes It scares me.

9. Bears and stufftoys are my babies. I love sleeping with them. Seeing them elsewhere. Hugging them. I think they ’re alive. Haha

10. I m not a good cook. I do not have good taste. I just know how to cook rice. Fried egg. Hot dog. Tuna pasta haha. Takot ako sa mantika. Haha

11. I hate bossy and half potatoes individuals.

12. I don’t usually watch television. But there are some topics that I want, science informative. TravelMag, FoodMag. TVMag. History.

13. I love internet. It can make my world go round. Fun of blogsites. Socialmedia sites.

14. I can have a day doing nothing. Ain’t easily get bored.

15. I love to laugh out loud. Friends and kakilala. Workmates knows this.

16. I love to travel but I never make it.

17. I love working with pipol. I believe they’re really good at heart. But youcan usually see me alone.

18. I only have few friends but lots of kakilala. They ’re both different.

19. I ’m childish. Walang wisdom tooth.

20. I love taking good care of my skin. I invest alot but not to the point of having treatment or anything made me pay off much. I just wanted soap. Scrubs. Facial creme. I just wanted it fresh and maintain its natural flawless look.

21. I have lots of fancy dresses. I do not have to many shorts just like a usual girls out there. In fact, I only have three of it. I prefer panjamas bed time clothes when at home.

22. I ’m not good in fixing may hair. But I loved to have a long one. i need to have someone to fix it for me. Ewan, kahit anong try ko..

23. Dancing and singing perhaps my frustarations haha. But I do.

24. Im an expressive person. I love to write. To speak. I love freedom of speech.

25. When I get offended or turn off. I do not show it. I just let it be. Baka ganun lang talaga yung tao. Learn to adapt. Hindi laging sila ang mag aadjust. You know, simple act of courtesy.

26. I do not have much talent. Haha. But I always try everything what comes on my mind.

27. I only have boyprend Once. My current boyprend and I were running three years this December 08.2015. ( hoping that he’ll be my forever) i believe on it. We both believe.

28. My type of a guy are Taller, Light complexion and having a killer smiles and eyes. Urg.

29. I love to talk about big issues. Regarding our goverment. Country. Philo. Anything that have sense.

30. I ’m weak. Sentimental and sensitive. I value everything in my life. Simple things and act matters.

31. I love extraordinary pipol. I love to have a long talk with someone.

32. I’m silent type of person but when we are close haha you can see the real talkative me.

33. I love drinks. Soda. Juices. Tetra. Redhorse. Wine. I just drunk up too much with closest friends (DJ’s and few friends) but not on those I just meet.

34. Baking. I know its difficult Im not good on measurements but There’s no harm in trying. I remeber I always want to make breads athome when I was a kid. I just wanted to make desserts so far.

35. I love coffee. I stopped my self for being addicted to it. I become acidic and it affects my digestion. But Frap and Iced Choco of Dunkin Donuts is Love.

36. I love reading books. And keeping them.

37. I do not make utangs. I hate obligations. I used to pay my bills as early as I can.

38. I’m shy of asking help from other. It makes me feel weak but I love helping others. That’s why I loved to work independently.

39. Workaholic and Responsible. I came to work as early as I can. Time is a money to me. I do not let pipol wait for me. But its okay for me to wait for them. I hate being late and being absent.

40. Pipol used to know me as sosyalera but Im not. Maybe I m just good at my dresses. But I do not want myself to be Bundok like. Or bano like. I know my place. But Im well with pipol. I used to jam with them regardless of thier state was.

41. I love being complimented. Praised. Admire. But I must learn to acept feedbacks. Im aint good handling it. I do not know why.

42. I easily give my trust or believed on what pipol promised or saying. I do not have boundaries on it.

43. I love pinoy street foods. My family scold me of the dangers in health but I feel soo full whenever I eat it. HAha. Isaw.kikiam.pisbol.kwekkwek. Tas’ suka na sobrang sarap. Make my day!

i can also eat at turoturo rather than expensive class A resto.

44. I’m good a focus but easily distracted or bother.

45. One of my weakness is too much care / attached and too impatient sometimes.

46. Moody. All of us maybe.

47. I do not have Severe MS. But I have Strong PMS. Too much. I easily get mad. Sorry BF.

48. I do not go out w/o bAgs or sometimes big bags with lots of girly things on it. Such as cosmetics. Extra shoes. Towels. Tissues. Pen. Umbrella. And soo much more. Most specially I have nest and organized bag. I invest on pauches and mini bauden.

49. I have a box full of make up cosmetics. Lipstick is my stress reliever in fact I currently 20 shades. see how my life been soo stressful lately.

50. I’m simple and loves fun and beautiful things in life. I dream big. I’m industrious in terms of work but lazy when it comes to household chores. Haha..

In case, I become famous haha. Well, i just wanted to just write.
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An Open Letter 2.0

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Dear Crush,

Kamusta na po? 
Sir? 

Its been six mos since the last time I saw you.
Padalawa ko na itong letter syo, nag sulat din ako kagabi pero kasi hindi ka mawala sa isip ko e. Scroll lang pababa Sir makikita mo yung isang version, yun e kung gusto mo lang naman. Sir. Anything, coffe? O vinegar pusit cute size you want?. Alam ko naman kahit anong ialok ko sayo na pagkain hindi mo tatangihan, mahilig ka din kasing mag food trip as per one of your friend.

September 01. 2014, yun ang first time kitang nakita. Mahigit kumulang isang taon na din ano po. Pero crush na crush pa din kita. Sabi kapag lumampas na ng six or seven mos (I Dont know exactly) hindi na daw crush yun. LOVE na.

Grabe yan ka na naman paasa. Ganyan nga pla siguro ang isang ikaw. Lambingin. Pa sweet. Kunwari concern. Kunwari pakiligin din. Kunwari mahal ako pero hindi pala. Alam ko minsan binalaan ko naman na talaga ang sarili ko ma-fall sa'yo kasi dama ko na likas na saiyo ang pagiging ganyan. Yung natural, yung makisama ay FC na FC. Pero dun talaga kita na gustuhan. Well, hindi ko kasi alam kung alin doon ang totoo o sadyang hindi mo lang ako type o sadyang pa loyal ka lang sa GF mo. Alam ko naman Sir na mahal mo yun, infact dakila nyo nga akong stalker e. Pero bakit, naramdaman ko na minsan ka na din – nag ka interest sa akin. Na parang may gusto ka din kaso yun nga pareho na tayong hindi pinag bigyan ng panahon.

Pero Sir alam mo, ang dami kong gustong sabihin sayo kaso higit kumulang 20mins lang tayo nag kakasama o minsan nag mamadali ka pa. Pero kasi feeling ko ang sarap mong kausap e, yung kahit anung daldal ko, titingin na lang at makikinig at sasangayon sa lahat ng sasabihin mo. Pinigilan mo ba? Sorry ha. Bihira lang kasi talaga akong mabihag ng sinumang lalaki, minsan lang ako mag kacrush, minsan lang at yung minsan na yun tila ba ang tagal tagal kong ma kaget over. Tamo ngayon, its been a year. (yung kalong ko pusa ko habang tinatype toh at pinress nya ang spacebar). Pero hindi pa din nawawala ang paghanga ko sayo.

Bilib ako sayo Sir, kung paano mo pigilan ang sarili mong ma fall, kasi alam mong may nag hihintay at nag mamahal sayo. Bilib ako sa tatag ng relasyon nyo at sa pagmamahal nyo. I dont know kung anong mga pinagdaanan nyo pero siguro ganyan na nga talaga kayo katibay. 3yrs daw sabi ng GF mo na galit na galit sa akin, na ultimo sa panaginip hinuhunting at inilalayo ka sa akin. I know she’s kind and lovable and ang swerte swerte nya sayo. You are family oriented, formal, reponsible, maalaga, masayang kausap. Kaya I know she’ll being soo protective lang at takot kang mawal kasi you’re one of a kind.

Sayang nga lang pinagtagpo tayong may commitment na. Ganda pa naman ng love story at tandem nating dalawa. Bagay daw tayo Sir, kasi magkahawig tayo at yun daw ang soulmate. Kaya siguro one time pinipilit mong magkamukha kayo ng GF mo kasi para soulmate din. Ewan, you make me feel anxious and stress when your around, medyo nakaka ilang kasi ikaw ba naman crush na crush ko ang makakasama ko. Hindi nga po ako makakwenta ng maayos e kasi nga pag andyan kana medyo iba. Sabi nila iba ka din naman pag ako ang nag aatend sayo at pag ibang managers.

Hindi ka kasi umamin ee, at hindi ko alam kung ang pick up line ba na yun ang pag amin mo. O yung mga pasaring at pahaging mo sa akin na ang tanging na igaganti ko lang e. Ngiting tagumpay.

Ma'am Ice ka ba!?? 
Bakit!?
Kasi CRUSHed kita.

Bakit kaya hindi ako crush ng crush ko, e palagi ko naman syang katabi pag nag pipick up!??

Sir, bakit ba! Kung single ba ako hanggang ngayon may mag babago ba.
BAKA!

These are just one of the many convo na meron tayo dati na eventually na pupunta lang sa biruan. Trip na trip ko mga banat mo at minsan akong hindi mo nakita kahit kakilala ko na napunta sa branch nyo, kinakamusta mo ako?. Sir, ilang beses ko naman sinabing kinikilig ako sayo, ilang beses mo din akong tinanong kung bakit ako mag reresign o kung anong balak ko after this. Nung, sinabi ko na hindi n kita makita ulit. Mukha o tila ba ayaw mong puamayg kasi baka nais mong sabihin, may pagkakataon pa. 
Hindi mo ako try kausapin at contackin to think nasa iyo Ng smart at globe numbers ko. I’d tried to reached you but It doesn’t worked.

Sadya na lang talaga sigurong tama ka, ‘Yung atin, wala lang yon’. Isang mahabang panaginip na nais ko na lamang balikan munit hindi ko pwedeng tambayan. Isang mahabang dula na maaring bahagi lamang ng sandali ng ating buhay na sinoman ay maaring maranasan. Tuluyan na nga sigurong lumihis ang minsang pinagtagpo nating landas, upang ipatikim ang tamis ng pag iibigan na siguro karapatdapat ipadama sa taong ating napiling mahalin at umaasang ganoon din sa atin.

Alam mo kung hindi ka dumating sa buhay ko, baka hindi na realized ng boyprend ko na maari pa pala kong magkagusto sa iba, maaring malawak ng siguro ang mundo ko at maaring hindi ko kayang tupadin ang pangakong habang buhay ko ay sya lamang. Mula nun, hindi ko na sya nahulihan ng ibang babae, siguro mY nakakachat pero di gaya dati at ngayon totally nawal na nga. Kasi may isang ikaw na dumating at sa loob ng matagal naming relasyon doon lamang nya ako ipinagdamot. Dumating pa sa puntong inaaway away ka nya at pinagbantaan. Pero parang wala na lang sayo. Sanay ka na ba Sir!?

Yun siguro ang layunin mo sa buhay ko. Bagamat nakakahinayang pero worth it naman. Kailan kaya ang muli tAyong pag tatagpuin , mag bago kaya ang ikot ng mundo nating dalawa? Sa panahong, pwede na tayo? O di kaya'y tuluyang nabakuran na at nabasbasan na ang panghabang buhay ng bawat isa sa atin.

Marami pa kasi akong tanong munit alam ko naman na di ka magiging interesado doon. Gusto kong mAlaman ang '0’ play safe mong sagot sa twing tatanungin ka. kung sakaling nag kagusto ka din sa akin. Wow, haba ng hair ko, first time ko na nag ka crush din sa akin ang crush ko…

Thanks for dropping by Sir, you made me feel beautiful kapag sinasabi mong maganda ako sa paningin mo.. Kapag naalala kita, kinikilig ako. At nakaka alis ng stress, nakaka inspire pumasok minsan ikaw na nga ang dahilan ng pag pasok ko kaya na awardan at nakilala akong maaga sa duty palagi one hour before dapat nasa store na ako kasi paiba iba kasi ang dating mo e minsan maaga minsan late.. Kahit ano pa man, sobrang saya ko nakilala kita.

Tsaka di ba na banggit ko sayo Geoffrey ang gusto kong ipangalan sa magging anak ko. Kapangalan mo? Kasi hango yun sa name ng boyprend ko jeffrey at bilang may actor ng indi na sobrang pogi at magling kong nakatrabaho na kapangalan mo. Hindi yun mag babago yun pa din, and he ’ll reminds me of a Geoffrey Beene.

So , pano Sir, pag na flattire ka. Sana makita kita sa daan. At sana makilala mo pa din ako. Mas lalo akong sesexy baka totohanin mo na yung sinabi mo na kapag sexy na ako e liligawan mo na ako. Sus, puro ka bola sir. Nadaan mo ako sa ganun.. I will imagine a day years from now, or should I say. Speacial Day. To have coffee with you, stare on your not soo cool eyebags, throwback those funny kilig moments. And just laugh. At magkaroon na ng sagot ang tanong ko. Have you feel the same way too!?? Di kita matitigan weakness ko kasi ang mata mo. Kaya di ko alam. Thanks for the GC’s di ko pa sya ginagalaw, the blue goodmorning towel, our last pick up together. Lumamig tuloy ang kape ko at kumunat ang vinegar pusit kakaalala ng masasayang oras na kasama kita.

Hindi ko alam kung paano puputulin ang sulat sayo. Pero alam ko mababasa ko pa din ito few years from now and I again remember this happy thoughts and wondering where you are..

So ganito na lang. 
Youre the one who called me this. 
And its special. Goodluck. See you somewhere down the road.

Ms. Ran. :)